Dear Die-ary,

I feel really down today, because this is the first time in a long time that I have really been....... well, depressed. The face of an angel??? The heart of a sin.  I havent gotten any estimates on the relationship scale, but have been back in fourth on the whole partner thing, which sucks. I havent eaten, which is bad. I'm just ready to have another break down. I havent been with my sister in two weeks............. and I think thats killing me the most. I promissed everyone that I wouldnt cut myself anymore. I really dont want drugs to be my back up, but I cant help but want them. My mother it so into my little sister getting good grades that she forgets I'm trying too, thats been bringing me down completely because I have been trying........ even though my grades aren't as good as I want them to be, and she dosen't give a fuck. All I ever hear is, "Your sister is younger then you and shes getting good grades."  Well fuck you Marica! And Larry, I dont do jack shit to your second born child, Im sorry I was such a fuck up. Cynthia, you are such a great mom, for a fucking Christ worshiper, lay off my fucking back about the one you kiss balls to. And fuck the all mighty as well, because if he really wanted us to get along in life he wouldnt have all the fucking problems, wars, rapists and murderers around. GOD DOSNT GIVE A FUCK, DONT YOU GET IT?! Fuck all you bastards that hate me for who I am, fuck all you bitches who talk shit, fuck anyone who has ever turned your back on me, and most of all FUCK ANYONE WHO EVEN THOUGHT OF THE IDEA OF BRINGING ME INTO THIS WORLD!

I'm loved by few, and wanted by......... probably none. And if I am wanted then its probably not the way I want to be wanted. I want to be loved, I want to be held, and I want someone to be there for me and tell me everythings going to be alright. I want somone to hold me at night when I cant fall asleep, and kiss my tears when they fall. I want to live in a world where everything is just the way I want it to be. I want everything to be alright. I just want everyone to fucking get along!

fuck.